Sunday, November 9, 2014

Savannah Baby

For the past 4 months, Damien and I have been training....for a half marathon. Sure it's like it's 4th half (not to mention he's ran 3 full marathons) but it's my FIRST. Never did I think that I would sign up for a half marathon.  After watching Damien finish his full marathons in Chicago, I thought I'd like to try it but without that whole training thing because it's just too time consuming.  I shocked myself by signing up, but I felt the peer pressure to do so. For this race, a few couples from our Sunday school decided to do the half in Savannah.  I had no intentions, but after talking to both husbands and wives, I discovered I was the only one not planning on participating.  As much as I hate to run, I hate being left out too.  Thus began the training.

I knew running took up time and with littles, I had to work around their schedules. In no way, would I push a child and run. Nope, I have limits.  I started out with most my running on a treadmill, then one day I finally hit the ground to run.  I will admit, it was torture.  (Now, I think running on the dread mill I mean treadmill is miserable.)  Finally one day, I just did 8 miles....then I found myself stuck there.  I was constantly saying to Damien, how am I going to get past 8 miles.  That's when I had to enlist back up, Gloria.  Gloria was running the half with us.  I found that I just needed some to run with to push me to the breaking point.  We did 9, then 10, then 11 and finally we did 13. Yes we skipped 12 because why not just go ahead and do the whole thing.  During training, I did 13.1 miles in 2:18 and 2:15. I was ready.

Eight of us where running in the race, for 4 of us, it would be our first half marathon. I found a saying that I thought was perfect, " to become a marathoner, you just have to become a runner. The race is merely the celebration of how healthy you've gotten as a result."  and healthy, we have become.  I lost about 9 lbs.  One guy in our group, lost 30 lbs and got off most his medicine.  This race, was our victory lap.  During my training I did 200 miles that I counted, that was before I actually started counting...so probably more like 220. I can't believe I put that many miles on my shoes.

Before the race, we went to the expo, picked up some gear an did a little yoga (Gloria and I did yoga.) After the expo, we did a trolley tour of Savannah. (we didn't get off at any of the sites.  I would love to go back on day and really tour it.) Forrest Gump was filmed here.  The movie and book of a "Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil" was based on a true story of a Savannah man.  Martin Luther King Jr practiced is "I've got a dream" speech in the basement of the oldest African church (where the underground railroad was said to have traveled under as well).  One of the first houses to have plumbing is here (even before the white house). Much, much more.

Beach time....just a wee bit chilly. I had to go back and get my jacket.

Yoga on the lawn at the expo with Gloria

Ferry ride to Savannah from the expo with my new gear

I am obsessed with these live oak trees with Spanish moss.  Breath taking
2nd largest private art school in the country "SCAD"

Yummy treats....pralines

Whistlestop Cafe a la "Fried Green Tomatoes"

Race Day! Early wake up call to catch the 5am shuttle to Savannah

My goal was two fold....I would take either goal.  I wanted to finish at least doing what I did in training and/or finish it without walking.  See I kind of said I was planning to finish at 1:50. I wanted to finish close to the same time Damien did. I didn't want him standing around waiting for me.  I was put in corral 3 out of 31 (18,500 runners).  I was like a fake elite runner. Jokes were made all weekend about my eliteness.  I had to accept that most everyone was going to pass me...and I shouldn't do anything about it. If I try to keep up with those in my corral, I would exhaust myself and essentially shoot myself in the foot.  Several times, I had to say to myself "it's okay that they are passing you". The first 6 miles zipped by.  I enjoyed the signs and crowd. My favorite sign "worst parade ever".  I had to coach myself "only 4 more miles, like 40 minutes" Many times, I wanted to walk and I continued to run.  Mind over matter.  When I saw that finish line about 50 yards away, I sprinted. I started feeling light headed but in my mind, every second counted. If I could beat Damien, he'd never live it down.  I did not beat him.  His final time was 1:55.  My final time was 2:07:04.  I couldn't believe how much I shaved off my training time.  I kept about a 9:45 pace.  This little ole "if I am running, someone is chasing me" girl to "watch me run 13 miles in just over 2 hours". 

Forsyth Park provided the perfect back drop for final race pictures. 
The group. Our fearless leaders Bob and Beth, Gloria and Chris (us) and Jacqui and Jason
We had a celebratory dinner at the melting pot. We ate every bit of it.  We had the calories to consume. 
 We have already began talking about next time.  I am looking forward to a few weeks or months of running not dictating my schedule. Damien said what if this is your talent.  I replied, I don't think God would give you a talent you don't really enjoy.  Maybe, just maybe I will start to crave it when I don't have to do it.

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Dylan's Musical Mix Up


I love that Dylan loves music. I love listening to him sing with the radio.  He sometimes gets the lyrics messed up...ok more than sometimes.  For Counting Stars, his lyrics were "baby, I see nothing to the fleas" the real lyrics, "lately, I've been, I've been loosing sleep."  For Iggy's "Black Widow Baby", the lyrics are "I'm going to love you, like a black widow, baby" he sang, " I'm going to love you like a black little baby."

I love him so much. Too cute. 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Dylan's Second Loose Tooth


Well, the second tooth to bite the big one, wasn't too far behind the first one.  Dylan pulled his second tooth as well.  The tooth fairy delivered $1 and a tooth receipt.  HAHA...this most be his lucky shirt as this was what he was wearing when he lost the first one.  

RIP 2nd tooth - 11/5/14

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Dylan's First Loose Tooth


Dylan has been dying to loose a tooth for some time. I have told him over and over again, it's a good thing you haven't lost any teeth, it's a sign that you have healthy teeth. He couldn't hold onto those baby teeth forever.  His first one became loose. It was loose for several weeks and then one day he just wiggled it right on out. I didn't want to have anything to do with it as teeth gross me out.  I was so proud of him pulling it himself. 



The tooth fairy delivered a dragon stuffed animal with a little pocket for future teeth, $5 and  a tooth receipt.  He's not sure if he believes in her. 


RIP first tooth 10/29/31


Monday, July 28, 2014

We will see you soon, friend

Today was Turbo's final day with us here.  He has now crossed over the rainbow bridge and has jumped in the arms of his maker at his forever home.

After we got his blood work back on Friday,  we decided it was time to let him go.  He hasn't been the same dog in quite sometime.  He was in pain.  His blood work and urinie analysis revealed kidney failure. It wasn't at the level of concern but the values had doubled since his normal blood work taken at his annuals in May.  It wasn't if but when it happened. I could tell he was already hurting and I didn't want to prolong that.

We told the kids that this would be our last weekend with Turbo.  Dylan cried and laid on Turbo for what seemed to be forever.  Damien had received some birthday balloons and Dylan put those on Turbo to celebrate his life.


I explained to Natalie that Turbo was going bye bye to be with Jesus.  She said Jesus, bible, God.  I've  been telling her he would get new eyes and a new body.


We made his last day as best as we could.  I bought him some steak at cooked it up good for him.  He gobbled it right up, as Griffin and Sophie looked on praying for some scraps.





 Sophie shared a few drinks of water with him for the last time. She couldn't resist herself and had to clean him with her kisses while he drank.


The neighborhood kids loved on him, and of course we loved on him.  I couldn't say I love you enough to him even though I know he couldn't hear me. (I made sure to tell him as soon as he passed too.)










We watched Heaven is for Real last night.  I found comfort in that in the movie, Colton says there are lots of animals there, and that no one is old in heaven.  I find comfort that the bible says "all creation will bow".

I slept on the couch to be close to him.  We had a storm last night.  It was rough.  Usually Turbo would be scared panting, pacing and shivering. He didn't even wake up.

I called this morning to make the appointment.  Everyone was very sweet. Then I called the cremation place. All while feeling I was about to loose it at any moment.  Even though you know it's what is best for them, it doesn't make the pain any less.

He slept in. At 10:00, I made him a breakfast of 3 scrambled eggs and 2 pieces of bacon.  I took it over to his bed and he enjoyed breakfast in bed.  Afterwards he laid back down, but I knew he needed to go out. I had to force him up and take him out. I was hoping to enjoy just a little walk with him.  Our last one together, just me and him.  Ha.  He wasn't having it. I just embraced him and we cried...okay so I cried.
 final kisses from Sophie


 last time in the yard

 We tried to recreate the photo from when he was a pup.  I had to get as close as I could to his doggie bed.  He didn't like the idea of laying on the floor.

It's funny, I adopted Turbo in Chattanooga, and he made it full circle after 13 or so years in Middle Tennessee.  We said good bye to each other in the same general vicinity that we say hello to each other.

At 10:45, everyone said their final good byes, and I drove him to the vet.  I asked that we do it outside. I didn't want it to feel cold and sterile in a room.  I wanted his last moments to be outside in the breeze. It was a beautiful day, even after the storms.  The doctor came out and gave him his shot of valium. I took him and laid him on his blanket.  They went back inside for 5 minutes or so.  During their absence, I sang to him "forever reign". I love the part where it says "oh I'm running to your arms. I'm running to your arms" as I just imagine Turbo running at full speed.  I also sang "you are my sunshine" because well, he was.

When they came back, the administered the medicine.  He breathing slowed and by the end of the dose, he took about 3 deeper breaths and he was gone.  They left me to say my good bye and I loved and kissed on him.  Reminding him how much joy he brought into our lives and how much he was loved. When I got in my car, the song "Open Up the Heavens" was playing.  Thank you God, I needed that little God wink from you.

I called my mom to tell her that he was gone...and Natalie was on speaker since she is with my mom right now. I told her Turbo's gone bye bye. He's with Jesus now. I asked her what did he get?  God knew I needed a chuckle, she replied "a penis".  God love her.  Finally she said new eyes and new body.

Damien shared this with me, that he read online. I love it. I will cling to it over the next few days, weeks, months, years....

Dogs Never Die

Some of you, particularly those who think they have recently lost a dog to “death”, don’t really understand. You see, Dogs never die. They don’t know how to. They get tired, and very old, and their bones hurt. Of course they don’t die. If they did they would not want to always go for a walk, even long after their old bones say: "No, no, not a good idea. Let’s not go for a walk.” Nope, dogs always want to go for a walk. They might get one step before their aging tendons collapse them into a heap on the ground, but that’s what dogs do. They walk and they run.

It that they love your company. A walk with you is all there is, being with you is the greatest thing on Earth to them. To walk with their boss, and the cacaphonic symphony of odors that the world is. Cat poop, another dog’s mark, a rotting chicken bone (extreme excitement), and you. That’s what makes their world perfect, and in a perfect world death has no place.

However, dogs get very very sleepy. That’s the thing, you see. They don’t teach you that at the fancy university where they explain about quarks, quantum mechanics, and Keynesian economics. They know so much they forget that dogs never die. It’s a shame, really. Dogs have so much to offer and people just talk a lot.

When you think your dog has died, it has just fallen asleep in your heart. And by the way, it is wagging it’s tail madly, you see, and that’s why your chest hurts so much and you cry all the time. Who would not cry with a happy dog wagging its tail in their chest. Wap, wap, wap. But they only wag when they wake up. That’s when they say:“Thanks Boss! Thanks for a warm place to sleep and always next to your heart, the best place.”

When they first fall asleep forever, they wake up all the time, and that’s why, of course, your chest hurts and you cry sometime. Wap, wap, wap. After a while they sleep more. (remember, a dog 'while' is not a human 'while'. You take your dog for walk, it’s a day full of adventure in an hour. Then you come home and it’s a week, well one of your days, but a week, really, before the dog gets another walk. No WONDER they love walks.)

Anyway, like I was saying, they fall asleep in your heart, and when they wake up in your heart, they wag their tail. After a few dog years, they sleep for longer naps, and you would too. They were a GOOD DOG all their life, and you both know it. It gets tiring being a good dog all the time, particularly when you get old and your bones hurt and you fall on your face and don’t want to go outside to pee when it is raining but do anyway, because you are a good dog. So understand, after they have been sleeping in your heart, they will sleep longer and longer.

But don’t get fooled. They are not “dead.” There’s no such thing, really. They are sleeping in your heart, and they will wake up, usually when you’re not expecting it, wag their tail and make your chest hurt and your eyes misty. It’s just who they are.

I feel sorry for people who don’t have dogs sleeping in their heart. They’ve missed so much. Excuse me, I have to go now, my chest is hurting.

Turbo,

You brought so much joy to our lives.  I know that God used you to bring Damien into my life and bring 2 beautiful children into our home.  I know that when you crossed that rainbow bridge God said well done good and faithful servant.  Thank you for the joy, the laughter and the tears.  You have been my best friend for 16 years and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. We will see you soon. It will seem forever for us, but only a little while for you.  Enjoy chasing, swimming and playing with all your new friends.   Hugs and Kisses sweet one.




Saturday, June 28, 2014

The Story of Turbo


It was a Saturday in February. Valentines day was coming up and I had decided to get my then boyfriend (BF) a dog for the special day.  I went to animal control in Chattanooga and began searching the kennel. Of course, my soft heart was overwhelmed.  I began crying. I knew I couldn't take them all. I was looking for a small dog that had personality. The first few dogs I looked at were nervous and just shivered. Then one dog caught my eye, he was jumping up on the door and wagging his tail.  I said, let me see that one.  He was great. I asked how big he'd get (by the way I didn't even know he was a he until I got home with him, because I was crying so hard to check under the hood).  The worker knew I wanted a small dog and told me "that's as big as he's going to get".  He came up about mid way between my ankle and my knee and probably weighed about 15lbs. Well, we all know now that he lived in a house of lies, but I am sure glad he did. I could just love that sweet face all day long.

Sleeping he looks like a baby polar bear




I took the dog back to my apartment and gave him a good bath.  I invited BF over to surprise him.  Within seconds, the new pup had a name, Turbo. BF knew that he would name his next dog Turbo after the abita brewery's beer, Turbo Dog Beer.  (Thankfully Turbo was fast so I didn't have to explain this.)

Turbo started his new life off by living in a frat house.  He got to pre-rinse all the dishes. Sometimes he cleaned them to well and BF would see someone fix a plate of food on the dish he just licked clean. HA.  He snatched food off plates, and there were always people around to give him attention. Not to mention, if he had an accident, well, it probably didn't matter, he lived with a bunch of men.  Whenever Turbo visited me at my apartment, he stayed right beside me.  Even if it meant laying on me while I studied.

Within the next year, BF moved out of the frat house and into an apartment. His roommate's Dad signed for the apartment and insisted that Turbo did not take up residence with them.  By then, I was rooming with a girl who was allergic to dogs. I wasn't able to take him. BF's mom had a dog that didn't like Turbo very much, so that wasn't an option. The only option was my mom and dad,  and I hated to ask that of them.  Turbo went to live with them until we could find another option.  We began asking around if anyone wanted a dog.  (Thankfully FB didn't exist then because he probably would've been snatched up.) After some reluctance, my Grandmother's friend, Kaye, said she would take him.  We drove to her house, I said my good byes, and we drove off as I bawled.  I made the trip back from Nashville to Chattanooga to go back to school. That night, I called my mom to ask if she had talked Kaye to check on Turbo.  She said I don't have to, he's right here.  Well, Kaye wanted Turbo to be an outside dog in a kennel/run.  Turbo wasn't so keen on that idea. He whined and dug until she said enough.  My mom went and picked him back up.  Thankfully, my mom and dad said they'd keep him until BF and I graduated college and got married.  I was graduating that year. Right before my graduation, BF and I called it quits.  Well he called it quits, I just went along with it. HA. Since Turbo was in my custody, he was mine to keep. He was cool with that plan.


 his girlfriend. he went through girlfriends so fast...he usually licked them to death. 
Halloween
 Christmas
 My cat, Cookie, was his first fur roomie. She taught him how to love cats.

After college, Turbo and I lived with my parents for a year or so, until we moved into an apartment with my friend Joe.  We lived about 10 minutes from a dog park, so everyday, I got off work at 3:30 and we headed to the dog park.  Going to the park daily, you tend to see the same people and get to know them. I met a lady named Marie who had a golden retriever.  We talked a lot.  One day she introduced me to this guy who lived in her neighborhood. I had seen this guy from time to time. He had 2 dogs and he was always on the phone, so I had never talked to him (little did I know this guy was working in sales and wasn't officially off the clock). This guy's name was Damien. We all know how that story ended... in marriage.

I took Turbo everywhere. Even to downtown Franklin's Octoberfest. He was a hit with the kids. He even made it in the newspaper. He was my best friend. We were like peas and carrots.

Turbo decided he needed a fur roomie and he found one. While at the dog park one day, which backs up to the local animal control, Turbo spotted a friend. I assume someone dropped off the little cat for animal control to take in.  She ended up coming back home with us, and she became Joe's cat, Niki. Niki and Turbo were buddies.  They loved each other.  Other things Turbo loved, running and playing with friends at the dog park and going on long hikes at the warner parks. Then ending the day with a little dip in the creek.

Turbo with Damien's dog Maggie and his roomate's dog, Ellie

After dating for a few months Damien informed me he was moving to Virginia for work. Before he moved away, I made him a photo book of me and Turbo.  I didn't know if we'd stay together, so this was my way of giving him a token of love.  (he came back 1 year later in case you were wondering)

One day, Turbo gave me quite a scare. We were hiking, and he was off leash. A deer crossed our path and Turbo decided he was up for a little game of chase. He was out of my eye sight. I yelled and yelled for him. I cried thinking I'd never see him again as I could hear cars. I just knew he'd chase it right into traffic. I just sat down in defeat.  Well, of course, he came back.  I hugged him and scolded him.  We never really went on that trail again.

Joe decided to buy a house in a part of town, that was too far from my work. I found another roommate and rented a house.  She had a girl dog about Turbo's age named Billie.  Turbo and Billie became fast friends.  I would always come home every day at lunch and let them out. One day, the weather was really nice and I decided that I would leave them in the backyard.  Damien would be at my house soon and I got off work shortly there after.  When he got to the house, he called me. I said, can you let the dogs in.  He was confused, they weren't in the backyard.  He found the spot where they dug and escaped under the fence.  I rushed home in a panic.  I got to the house and began yelling for the escapees.  They came running.  I was so relieved.  I never left them out again.  Turbo proved to be quite the digger. (I don't know how I don't have a pic of him and Billie.)

Damien and I got engaged. Damien made it a family affair when he proposed and Turbo was right there.  He was about 4 years old in this picture.

 Dog Park fun

Our wedding was approaching.  The dog he took to the park all the time became his former roommates' when he moved to Virginia for a year.  He didn't know his living situation or work schedule, so he thought Maggie would prefer to stay with her dog buddy, Ellie.  We decided Turbo would need a friend. We scoured Petfinder looking for the right pet. We found one that peeked our interest.  We went for a meet and greet and brought Turbo.  Turbo seemed not to really care and they seemed to be fine with each other, and that dog became Sophie.  Our little momma to Turbo. Even though Turbo was about 5 years her senior, she treated him like her puppy.  Always cleaning his eyes, mouth and ears. She loves to lick him.


We moved further from the dog park when we got married, so we didn't go like we once did. Nor did we get to take the dogs hiking.  Thankfully we had a huge yard and a subdivision with lots of sidewalks and connections to other neighborhoods.  Turbo and Sophie could walk for days and days.  Often times, I would get stopped on my walks and would be asked what kind of dog is that, "he is beautiful".  I would always smile.  Turbo won everyone over.  Even if it was someone who didn't like dogs, they liked Turbo.  Our new neighbors had 3 little kids when we moved in (later they added 2 more) and they loved Turbo, one even called him Burbo.  Turbo loved all the attention he got from people. If you weren't petting him, he would stick his nose in your crotch to get your attention. He is a snuggler, a lover and a mud lover.





When we had kids, of course, things changed. We brought Dylan home and you could tell Turbo was intrigued and curious. The second Dylan filled his diaper, the sound alone ran him out of the room.  He wasn't crazy about Dylan. He'd leave the room if Dylan got too wild.  He wouldn't play with him, but by this time he was 8 almost 9. He had never done this kid thing before.  As Dylan got older, he tolerated him more.


playing in the snow
playing in the leaves
Dylan and Eliza rubbing Turbo down

Natalie came along and Turbo seemed to warm up to her faster. He was much more patient with her.  This wasn't his first rodeo. While he couldn't hear her fill her pants since he had gone a little deaf, he somehow sensed when it happened and left the room as if to say, I'm not changing that.  Natalie could never hug Turbo enough. She is just like me, a little animal lover. She loving says oh Turbo and calls him old man.


Other things that made him nervous, other than kids, was fireworks and thunder. I dreaded any holiday in spring hill. Every holiday meant fireworks.  I kid you not, memorial day, boom, july 4, boom, christmas, boom, new years, boom. Turbo would not dare make his way out if he had heard fireworks within the last hour.  Then there were some nights he wanted out, so I'd put him out.  Then he wouldn't want to come back in. I'd storm off to bed mad, "fine, just stay out there", then I'd flash back to the time he dug out of the fence and I'd go back outside to retrieve him.  It would end up with me chasing him around the yard and him thinking it was all a game.  I'd be so mad.  I am sure he chuckled it up. "Yea, I got her to chase me."


Imagine me outside at midnight, trying to find him in this yard at night.  What a sight!

I remember shortly before we moved, I went outside to get him. He had been outside sunning.  When I looked, there was no Turbo. Ordinarlly, I would say he's hiding under one of our evergreen trees, but the gate was opened. I panicked. He didn't have a collar and he was deaf. How would he hear me yell for him?  I got the kids and we got in the car. I followed the creek line as that's where Turbo usually walked when he got out. I stopped to ask people if they had seem him. You can guess what I was doing, yep, crying. Dylan was upset too. Mostly because he saw me crying. I was about to run out of gas so I left the neighborhood to get some. On the way back in, I see 2 women walking him.  I jump out of the car and wrap my arms around him and explained that someone didn't close our gates and I'm not a bad owner.  My heart was happy that something bad didn't happen to him.

In Feb 2013, we decided to add to our fur babies. We decided on a golden doodle. We wanted a puppy because we knew Turbo wasn't going to be with us much longer.  We wanted him to train the puppy.  I originally wanted a female because I didn't want Turbo to feel like we were replacing him or that his manhood was being tested.  Well we were at the end of the picks.  We either were going to get a curly red girl or a boy.  We opted for the boy, and that is Griffin.  Turbo was not a fan of Griffin once he became active and knew he could pester him.  Griffin would latch onto his tail and not let go. Turbo would let out a big bark to voice his displeasure.  Then there were times were Turbo would get frisky and play with Griffin. That makes my heart happy. 
Griffin, Turbo and Sophie having a lazy day
Damien works at Mars and they are building the new corporate headquarters for Mars in Spring Hill.  Associates got a chance to bring a pet in to be photographed to grace the walls of the new facility. He took Turbo so I could have some professional photos of him done.  He looked beautiful, so royal.  I hope he makes the wall. I can't wait to see if he does. 


In July 2013, we left our home in Spring Hill and moved to Cleveland.  We lost our huge back yard and now, our back yard is tiny (at first I didn't like this but I think God knew Turbo would need a small yard since he gets lost easily now). Thankfully we live on a cul de sac with a large front/side yard.  We found the greenway. All the dogs love it.  We drop Dylan off at school, and on good days, Natalie and I take the dogs for their morning walk.  We always get great compliments on the dogs.  People are always surprised to hear that Turbo was 15.  What? He looks like a puppy, they say. ( I think he still looks like a puppy until you see his eyes. They are clouded over with cataracts now). The neighborhood kids have grown to love him too.  He loves going out and running with them but he hasn't done that in a few months.  He did get to enjoy his first real snow, about 9 inches.  My little husky/ retriever mix loves the cold. (that reminds me, we got a DNA test for him. It came back husky, jack russell and cocker spaniel. Nah, I am not believing it. I stills say husky and retriever.)

on the greenway

Griffin and Turbo romping around in the snow

Watching him age, he has done it with grace. The last few weeks, I have noticed his health getting worse.  One day, he wouldn't get out of bed. I lost it.  I cried so hard.  I started him on some joint granules and oiling him.  He seemed to improve.  Then this week, he woke up and he was running into walls and tables. He can't see me anymore.  I think he can make out shadows of things when he gets close but that's it.  He seems to have gotten his hearing back a little bit.  I credit this to the oil I was diffusing in our room at night to help him. One of the calming blends is linked to helping with hearing loss.  He can hear me clap again.  I find that he's drinking constantly which means he needs to go out more. Also, he's pacing the house more.  I follow him around in the middle of the night. I am thankful that I wake up when I hear his nails on the hardwood. It's so funny what we wake up for.  I wake up for my kids and for Turbo. Damien could sing in the shower and I wouldn't wake up.  I have been praying that God takes him home soon.  I don't want to have to make any decisions about putting him to sleep.  My heart would burst into a 1000 pieces.  Once I was walking through petsmart and decided to go out the vet side as it was raining and closer to my car. As I passed through the lobby, a lady was sobbing. I just knew what had happened and I lost it.  Imagine what I will be like if it's my own. I pray God answers my prayer with a yes.  As I am typing this I am crying, just thinking of it.  Turbo has been a part of my life since my junior year in college.  In August, that will be 15.5 years. I could not imagine a dog that as sweet as him, as loyal as he is.  He has been my best friend at the lowest points of my life.  He has been my confidant.  He keeps secrets amazingly well. He's been my bed buddy when Damien traveled and when he wasn't traveling.  He's quite a bed hog.  I wouldn't trade a second of our time with him. I am so thankful that the guy at animal control lied to me about his size.  I am thankful that my then BF wanted a dog.  I am thankful for Maggie's Bark Park in Franklin where Turbo met many fur friends and I met my soul mate.  Thank you Turbo for all the memories. All the times you listened to me cry and for making my life complete. Loving you has been an honor and a treasure. I  know you are not gone yet, and I will take every chance to show you the love you deserve. I pray I get to see you on the other side of the rainbow bridge, with a new body that allows you to run and play with me again. Thanks friend. You are the best! If I could I would keep you forever!